If only You were here…

Dear God,

I do not know why this thought had come to my mind to write a letter to you, when I can go to the temple,  bend on my knees and Pray. When I can just close my eyes and think of You and talk to You. Recently so much has been going on, that I have stopped doing that too. In temple they shower you with everything nice, and every person be it old or young has a tiny twinkle in their eye – ‘hope’ that everything will be okay. Before them, my wishes might look much much tinier. And I say to myself, probably they need You more than I do. Now when I need You, I can’t go back on the words I thought. If only You were here, You could have heard me say all these to You. I am still holding onto ‘Faith’. I wish its on my side.






Note: Just another personal post..!!!

Save Them..!!

 

What were we doing till 1411 ?? We realised we have to save them only when 1411 are left ?? We should have started this when 5000 or 10000 were remaining. Well, many voices, many opinions. The only thing we can do now is Save them. They need us. Stop killing the tiger for luxury and entertainment.

Save our Tigers!! Join now  Save Our Tigers I have done my bit. Did You ??

 

 

All is Well… (not)

Long since i penned something into my bloggie. The new year passed. So did my birthday and my blog’s birthday passed. No, I didn’t forget any of them, but wasnt in any mood to celebrate any. Year 2010 was a very good beginning. A lot of first timers happened with me. Some i was excited about and some I lost hope on.

The year began with one I wanted to experience always. I wanted to see the solar eclispse. And this year gave me an opportunity to do so. One Ms.R in office was generous enough to explain in the style of  the character Dushyant of ‘Sarabhai Vs Sarabhai’ Fame, and explained me the day starting from the dialogue ‘Let Me Explain…’. We had a gala time in office that day, since we had less work and many didn’t turn that day to office since they had added this day also as another day to their long weekend. Ms.S had hired my goggles to catch a glimpse of the solar eclipse and was running in and out of the office raising questions to her mom on phone saying ‘Suno Mummy…. Dekho.. toh..’ al the time. Finally we decided to take a chance and Ms.R and I accompanied her to the cafeteria in our building, Just when we reached , we watched a big cloud passing over the sun and could see the eclipse clearly on the floor of cafeteria. Wow, that was some experience. :-) We all came down and again Ms.R started ‘Let me Explain….’ theory of explaining it to all about our experience. Both me and Ms.R had lot of issues with the test environment and decided to stop working for the day, because nothing was working in our favour at work :P

The next one was my birthday. My sis surprised me with a big hand-made album with all my pics from my younger age till now. Got lot of gifts but this one would stay special. No matter how much we fight, for one day i forgot everything. S brought me the most special gift and wished the most wonderful wish one can ever wish for someone. I havent seen it in movies ( it even isn’t in a writer’s imagination), the most beautiful wish ever.. :)

Then there came the day, when the moon would seem the brightest and biggest of all. S called me in the morning and told me about the moon. I was quite excited about the fact that, he being interested in photography would surely take some shots. But both of us were in no mood to get excited about it. Still i didnt want to miss it. I wanted to see how it really looked. Moon had always been my dreamland from i dont know how long. I used to imagine so many things as a kid and end up saying a ‘na… not my types…’

Then poured the wedding cards, invites and reception gala.. for year 2010. Out of 100% of people i met throughout my career, about 5% got wedded with parents’  approving their son’s or daughter’s choice thinking that’s what would keep the kids happy and will keep them happy seeing them happy. Whereas 95% are still struggling to either find the right match or struggling to make their parents agree to the match. So this shows i have a lot of company :P

Mrs.V in my team is a expecting mom, and she’s having the most beautiful days in life. She placed my hands on her itsy witsy tummy and asked me to stay calm for sometime, and boy!! did he kick hard..!! Me and Ms.R were so excited. Ms.R was like.. ‘isnt it weird, a person is sitting, and something is moving inside kicking from inside’ :P but this was the first time, i felt some baby from inside a tummy kick me :(   God bless the mommy and the baby :)

Last but not the least, I met my blogger friend who blogs here. Ladies and gentlemen, thats Shylu for you. We both work in the same organisation and got lucky to meet each other. It was the very first time I was meeting someone out of web and I’m so glad about the attempt. Though i was a little skeptical about it, and kept my terms and conditions to her before we met, She happily broke all the rules and conditions applied :) jus kidding shylu.. :) We had a good time, spoke for long. The best part is we recognised each other the first attempt itself without exchanging phone no.s.

After all these happenings I still feel quiet lost. Something somewhere is missing . Unknown of what I’m seeking for. Seeking what my karma is.. too much in just two lines.. i can still go on..!!

Will come up with a travelogue very soon, Also with some pics of meet with Shylu.

Edited to Add:

 

Yup..!! That’s me and Shylu:-)

Shylu: Please dont scold me for the modifications with butterflies… and borders. That was to suppress the double-chin and colgate ad. :P

L.L.L – Loss of Lumbar Lordosis

Its been a long time since i posted something new and I missed my blog very badly..!! Wondering whats with the title. This post would tell you what it is.

For sometime, I was away from the blog due to some problems at my personal front, but that never kept me moving on and take what life brings you. So i moved on with just the words called ‘hope’ and ‘time’ and believing that they will make everything okay. After some days i realised i was having back pain while sitting or standing for sometime. I thought may be it is due to the stress at work, but there wasn’t much stress at work those days and then i started thinking its all in my mind and i should avoid thinking of it. One fine day just when i felt the pain was gone from my mind, The autorickshaw helped me getting it back. And this time it was severe. When it became unbearable I had to rush to the hospital near my house and me being so scared of the the word called ‘injection’, I had no other option but to ask for it. Once the injection was done, I was asked to take dosage of medicines for some days thinking that it was a bad spasm of my muscles and it will leave once I am on medicines.

So i made up my mind and continued it, but medicines effect were only temporary. The pain stayed at it own pace. I visited the ortho the next week, and he advised the same. I went on a physio therapy thereafter thinking it would help my muscles and spine relax, but it instead increased it further and my nights became horrible. My dad and mom insisted me to come home one day and visit a house some about 90 kms away from our place for an investment and even after my resistance, thinking that they shouldn’t take it otherwise, I accompanied them. Then came the worst part. 2hrs of drive from and to the place, the spine had lost to the travel or excitement, and I had no expressions of happiness when i brought the house. Only thought which was there in my mind was, when would the pain go. The worse part is yet to come. I tend to avoid the pain which existed on my back for most of the time. But this time it wouldnt just listen. It didnt give any signs until i reached office and sat on my chair. I felt as if someone really poking me hard on the back of my spine and this time it was severe pain. I got up from my seat every 5 mins and yes, that was the duration i  was able to withstand my pain. Then i went for a diagnosis of my spine and the report now says Loss of Lumbar Lordosis.

This means the spine which is natural to have the curve that it has, is getting straight from the bottom, which is why it isnt able to support my back. This is accompanied by severe back pain and also contraction of the nerves that is in between the spine discs. I have been on dosage from about three weeks and the result – from bad to worse. I am unable to do any household or office work, and my morale is too down. I cant ride my bike myself, I feel odd asking someone to ride and drop me off at some place. I am so used to doing my work myself that I feel awkward asking for help. My daily routine earlier used to be wake up, get my good morning wishes, have/skip breakfast, rush to office, finish work As Soon As Possible, rush back home. And now, it turns out to be wake up, exercise, heat pad, have breakfast, tablets, rush to office, avoid sitting for some time, sit and work  As Far As Possible, rush back home to avoid more pain, physio treatment, rush to bed, since i cant withstand more pain which i caught due to sitting and eating dinner. Yesterday we had lunch outside in a hotel and i caught people’s eye standing every now and then while eating.

I just hope this pain goes away soon, and I have more time to spend for my work and myself!! I do not know when i would get a chance to post again , so until then, Wishing everyone a ‘Merry Christmas’ and a very ‘Happy New Year’

Two-du-du-Two-du-du

Humming Do-Co-Mo Tune??!!! from the title.. Well… its a tune for my blog too :-)

Any guesses about the post??!!!  My blog turns two coming January.. And I’m so very happy..!! Sorry blog I forgot your first year birthday..!! But see… this year I shall make you more special.!! I have also caught eyes of about 2000+ readers. That makes the icing on the cake..!! Thanks to all the readers who stopped by and left their valuable comments.

 

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